lonely.

it's monday. there is only one really bad thing about mondays.

michael has to be back in san antonio for work on mondays.

i hate it. we've lived this way, apart during the week, for 1 1/2 years. we're both sick of it. the problem is, it's gonna continue at least 3 more months.

i finally get used to him being gone by wednesday. thursday, i miss him again. friday, he comes home and we start all over with a million things to do. we dont get any rest and we stay up late because we aren't ready to leave each other. by the time monday morning gets here, neither of us can really wake up prepared for work.

we aren't the kind of couple that likes to spend a lot of time apart. we just have fun together and enjoy being together. i guess that's a good thing since we are planning on getting married in 12 days.

yes, you read it right. 12 days. im just too tired to be excited about that right now.

i just called michael with nothing to say. he said: babe, you always get miserable when i'm in san antonio. uh...yup. it just makes life a lot harder when he's gone.

i love michael with my whole heart. he makes me so happy. he is my best friend. he is my life.

i dont think i've ever been this miserably happy in my life...