am i still alive?

i'm attempting to post to find out if i am, in fact, still present on this earth...

i just got home from a trip in which i took my 9 month old (possibly teething son who just rode in the car for 3 hours last night) for a 4.5 hour round trip from san angelo to cisco. we went to retrieve ellie from her sue sue. i'll be watching her this week while her parents are at district council.

as soon as i loaded the kids in the car and made the many adjustments to get us home without stopping, michael started whining. ellie could momentarilly appease him with her many songs and sweet "baby michael voice". between "twinkle twinkle's", "by-oh baby's" and "shiny little pony's", her sweet voice would say, "okay, baby michael, i'm gonna sing you just one more song. okay? just one more song. now, no more fussing."

his longest stint of silence was during ellie's rendition of "part of that world" from the little mermaid. i must admit, my eyes didn't touch much of the road for those few minutes. i couldn't take my eyes off that little blond headed girl in my rearview mirror singing sweetly to my crying baby boy. she actually did really well on that song, i think maybe thanks to her babysitter this past year...??

after that, it was all screams and talking, talking and screams. i sped the rest of the way home. didn't even slow down when i hit town. slowing down at that point seemed like torture.

so, if this post actually makes it to the internet, then i survived. i really am sitting in this chair playing "now you give me a present!" with ellie while screamy-mcscreamerton sleeps in the other room.

moment of truth....dun. dun. dun.