babies on the brain...

no, i'm not pregnant. nor do i want to be...right now, anyway.

i do, however, have babies on the brain.

i have been thinking about them a lot lately. there are so many sweet babies around, that i can't help but think what my own will be like.

ellie was here this weekend and it was wonderful to see her. she wasn't feeling very well, so she fussed a little bit. it was just hard to sit there and not be able to make her better, i cannot even imagine what her mama felt like during that time. when ellie wasn't feeling bad, it was so fun to watch she and sarah together.

it is fun to watch crystal and jacob love each other, as well as jenny and mason and all of those other wonderful children i am constantly around. it is fun to talk to michelle as she falls in love with that little baby growing inside her.

last night as michael and i sat out by the street, enjoying our time together, a little girl rode by on her bicycle with training wheels and her dad was walking happily beside her. after he waved hello, i could hear him giving her bike riding advice as they moved on.

i stared after them for a long time, thinking about michael with children. he will be such a wonderful dad. i can't wait to see him that way...but then again, i can.

as much as i'm thinking about babies, i still want time with michael. so, i'll hold off as long as i can. i'll enjoy the season i am in, and when the time comes for babies, we'll both be ready for them...

hopefully.