to apply or not to apply

the question of moving still hangs in the air. it hangs heavily. we're just ready to be together. michael is tired of the commute. he is tired of his home only being his home 2 days a week. it's crazy. i don't know how he's done it this long.

now, a new question looms in front of me. i have put off applying for jobs in sa because i didnt know if we were moving. now, i wonder if the best thing might be to just have my bases covered no matter what.

i got online and read up on one of the sa districts. i've heard many good things about this district and they are continually opening new schools. it's a good area of town and everyone i've talked to has good things to say. they are hiring a huge amount of teachers for the upcoming school year. i decided i was going to apply, i mean i stand a pretty good chance to be one of the 800-1000 teachers they are looking for.

however, if you are an experienced teacher, one of your required references must be your current principal. whoa.

there are many changes going on at my school here and i'm afraid if i tell my principal that a move is possible, she may move me to the bottom of the totum pole. i mean, i am one of the newest teachers here, but i don't think at this point, she would mess with our team. we work really great together. we teach great together. it's just a good team that she never has to worry about or deal with. now there is a teacher who wants to move up with her kids next year. if i bring up the move, and then we decide not to, will she have already filled my space?

i'm just scared and worried and i wish the answer were right in front of me.

any suggestions?