after much time in prayerful consideration

like um...one day, we've decided to do it!

okay, not really one day, but we seriously have decided to build our new home.

we're headed out to the summit (the community where we want to build) to put our earnest money down on our lot and get the ball rolling.

i've been so excited at the thought of a new home that i haven't been able to sleep soundly for a couple of weeks. now that it's come down to really doing it, i'm nervous! can you believe that?! is that normal or am i a total weirdo?

a few days ago i couldn't stop thinking about how it would feel to live in a house again, how i would decorate, how comfortable our guests would be when they came to stay with us, the babies that would grow up in that house and how jules would feel to have a back yard again.

now all i can think about is our "getting out of debt" plan, the house payment, a possible drive through early morning traffic, the lot we have chosen and the market the way it is right now.

i mean, we have things worked out financially, so i'm not really worried about that. it's just all of the other things that are trying to put a damper on my joy. michael is excited. i'm excited. we've prayed about this. we've thought and talked about this. i think we're making the right decision and in about 30 minutes i'm going to head out and prove that.

oh...jesus...