i'm still pregnant

at 38 weeks pregnant, i am more than ready to be done. yes, i'm uncomfortable but i've moved on from that. now, i'm just ready for the anxiety to be over with.

for the past two weeks, i've wondered what labor will be like. i've had plenty of friends have plenty of babies. i've heard a million labor stories. it's so different when it's your turn. i just worry about what it will be like, how bad it will hurt, how i'll react to it. i don't want to get to the hospital and be sent home but i don't want to have the baby in the car on the way either. i'm sure that won't happen but when you have no idea what to expect, everything seems like a possibility.

we had our birthing classes this week and that may have made things even worse. i think michael may understand a little more about what will happen so that's good. at one point during a video, he looked over at me completely serious and said, "i love you...". sweet man. i almost smacked him. :)

on thursday night, i started feeling a few light contractions. they didn't continue long or settle into a pattern. there were only a few and then they stopped. it was a little exciting. and super scary.

i'm just ready to be done with the worrying and anxiety over labor. i know when the baby comes, it will still be there but it will be about him...not about how to get him here.

i just have to remember to keep praying and relax. hopefully i can do that.